this is just about everything and anything I feel like speaking my mind about at this moment....and it is pretty random.

FRIENDS
I can not stand it anymore. My so-called "friends" always ditch me. Why have friends if this is the payment? If I died today, would they care? If I died would they grieve? Now they yell at me. What is going on? Something here is not right. Like Perfection77 says ((something along this lines)) "Why be sociable if you are just going to get shunned and rejected?" It is fucked up shit.

MATT
Matt and I broke up today. It came as a big shock to me. I think he was expecting it. I am not sure who broke up with who but yeah. Even worse, we are fighting too. I had hoped we could be friends and still be there for eachother. I mean seriously, I have 4 years of high school to look forward too and I do not want to spend them tied down to one guy. Maybe if things do not work between Micah and me. I do not know...but there is one thing I do know...I will always love him.


that is all for now